Responsibility

An essential part of manhood is responsibility. Whether it is responsibility to your neighbor, to your state, or to yourself. When a man accepts the weight of responsibility, he makes a commitment. Whether he is a Muslim commiting to the Hajj or a dad commiting to attend his son's hockey game. Responsibility is tied to duty and duty is one of the cornerstones of what it means to be a man.

I am at the time in my life where I am expected to begin the final stages of my metamorphisis from a boy to a man. Needless to say, this involves a growing collection of responsibilities and duties associated with these various obligations. Many of these responsibilities are inevitable results of my newfound independence. Specifically, these responsibilities include many responsibilites to the self: educate one's self, feed one's self, so on and so forth.

Many of these responsibilities to self are certain functions a man must perform on some sort of regularity. One of these responsibilites in particular I have been unable to take care of recently.
Tonight, I thought I could finally attend to the pressing matter which I have neglected within the past week, yet due to the nature of events that have unfolded within the past few hours I have been unable to complete my sacred duty of manhood: my responsibility to self.

These events, which have obstructed my ability to accomplish the task I set forth to do, have only added to the irritability I have experienced from the simple fact I have been deprived of the power to fullfill my responsibility. This deprivation has led to a deep longing within the core of my very being. A typical unsympathetic stranger would assume that the longing, one in my position would be feeling, is simply superficial. I assure you it is anything but simple or superficial. It is a desire that overwhelms my whole being. It is as if my very soul is pushing me towards my single goal -- fullfilling the duties that I, as a man, are responsibile.

Ultimately, if a man must meet the responsibilities required of him, how can I call myself a man when I cannot surpass the obstacles separating me from my goal?





Frankly, I need to masturbate.